Author Archives: joelbigelow

What’s moving you? Fear or love? I think it’s interesting to see the moments where I feel fear begin to grip my heart. It’s a constricting force motivating me to protect and hide. Violently oppose letting people see me for who I am and seeking to have my own way dominant in my experience. IContinue reading “fear or love?”

Ever so often there’s a seasonal shift that feels really important. I think it comes around the times when I feel ready to move on. Sometimes it happens when I’m not ready though. When I’m grasping onto something that I don’t want to be apart of that is coming to the forefront of my lifeContinue reading “seasonal”

*this post contains information that may spoil the film The Worst Person In The World Tethered. It’s powerful to me that I get to grow and know myself better through being seen by other people. I was thinking about this in relation to false image, which has actively sabotaged true connection in my life. IContinue reading “passe”

here i are. breathing in the sum of existence. breathing in today and the moment with all it’s sharp pain and ecstatic joy. the feeling of being cared for in a specific way. (like a lover making you breakfast. like a friend hugging you when you aren’t okay.) the feeling of coming back to aContinue reading “a subtle formation”

Flow through it. Blessed are the peacemakers for they will be called the sons of God. I think it’s so fascinating to have the heritage of a person wrapped up in the way they choose to spend their lives. Like Jesus saying to the religious leaders of the day that they were like their father,Continue reading “flow through it”

I think looking back on my 20’s I’d say to myself now on the edge of 30, “say what you mean as honestly and humbly as you can. Lean into curiosity and gentleness, when engaging others, specifically when you want to throw up a defensive barrier or speak with fire on your tongue. Be slowContinue reading “wine stained teeth”

*idk if i even need to say this, but i write these daily and sometimes post versions of them on here. This one is from last week. I got up really early today and drove over to San Jose. I had the intuitive sense that listening to David Whyte’s conversation with Krista Tippett might beContinue reading “myself, in this body”

You are the salt of the earth. I think about this in the context of flavor, but also in the context of my own life. In my experience, there is a natural thing that happens when a person starts communing more closely with love. I’ve had some friends in the dark times of last year,Continue reading “salt”

“Whoever hears these words of mine and does them will be like a man who built his house on a rock and the storms came and beat on the house yet it held firm.” Hears and does. Practice. It’s so powerful to hear at the end of this famous body of sayings that Jesus saidContinue reading “beyond my range of vision”

I slept for like over 12 hours last night. Today is my sabbath and I’m really vibing with just getting to rest. It’s beautiful. I feel so alive today. I’m in San Jose and visiting a shop that loves cat and cloud (I too, love cat and cloud). I think I’m gonna buy a sweatContinue reading “be”