Author Archives: joelbigelow

Relational connection is powerful. I think connection with the natural world is also quite potent. I’ve been in a space recently that I think I used to aspire to in meditation. There’s this concept around observation that has to do with how we interact with our internal landscape. In kind of simple phrasing it wouldContinue reading “tactile negotiation”

It’s been an eventful past little period of time for Joel. I woke up today feeling refreshed and ready to move forward with all the beauty that is coming for me. I am learning a lot about myself. I’m learning how to set boundaries for myself and allow myself to be curious and lean intoContinue reading “so is existing though”

San Luis Obispo it’s a mouthful to say out loud, so the Californian’s refer to it as SLO, which is great. That’s much easier to say. I found myself outside the theater and the temperature had dropped to a slightly chilly mid-fifties range. I was in short sleeves and goose bumps formed on my arms,Continue reading “slo”

The way I’ve begun to recognize healing in myself has been when someone who has wounded me deeply is no longer the reason I am doing something or not doing something. I am no longer reacting to that trauma but have found a way to begin integration of whatever that experience was bringing to theContinue reading “trust is sexy”

I woke up this morning and I felt good. I mean, once I started being cognizant enough to check in with myself and see what was going on. I didn’t even notice how warm it was when I stepped outside the tent. That came later when I was brewing the coffee. I feel good rightContinue reading “so far so good”

Douglas came over to meet me at my fire. He said it was a lovely fire and he just had to come see it a little closer. I asked him his name. I told him mine. I asked him about his day. He told me he had been in a zoom call for five hours.Continue reading “douglas”

Horses at Night I woke up in a beautiful place with coffee that I was able to make in my Aeropress with my jet boil. The weather was temperate. I can’t help feeling kind of lucky these days. I was looking back at my Instagram feed from even close to 7 weeks ago and IContinue reading “becoming ourselves is costly”

Consider listening to Sinking Upward while reading this. I’m getting into a sort of odd routine of navigating being in a place where I want to be and figuring out how to work with all the parts of life that keep happening in the process. I’m functionally living out of my car right now, justContinue reading “a teal hydro flask”

I have an interview on Friday with a company I’m really drawn to from an ideological perspective. It seems like I want to be aligned with the mission and values of an organization that I’m giving a large part of my energy and time to more than other things. Perhaps a lot of us wantContinue reading “somewhere near hollister”

I’ve been camping in beautiful places a lot lately. I’ve been cooking with blended fuel attached to a collapsible burner in a utilitarian pot lately. I’ve been listening to Harry Potter on audio book (there are a lot of hours to that story) lately. I’ve been going to grocery outlet and buying firewood for $4.99Continue reading “lately”